a year on from a very traumatic day...12/6/2011

this time last year we were in a very different place to were we are now. it was a very diffuclt, painful and unhappy time for us for the follwoing reasons.

i held hubbys hand as we had just very unexpectedly found out about hubbys very poor sperm count, morphology and motility and were told it was very unlikely we would ever conceive naturally but to remond ourselves there was some sperm there so with the help of ivf icsi we still had a chance of becoming parents one day

the following day i had cervical biopsies for my abnormal smear and was dreading to be told my cervical changes were progressing again (previously at cin stage 2). following the mess i got in after the last treatment, i was so scare during the procedure and i remember just looking at hubby for some reassurance that i was going to be ok, this time him holding my hand but the fear in his face as he saw how much pain i was in said it all. luckily this time the changes weren't as progressed and i didnt require any further treatment.
so then after having 9 days to recover from that i had my 3rd laparoscopy surgery. this time to be told both ovaries were attached to my pelvic wall from the endo nd there was more in other places too. i took 7 weeks to fully recover after this one, but we kept the hope by reminding ourselves that me being endo free ( for however long it lasts) meant 2 things: firstly i would be pain free (hopefully) for our wedding and honeymoon, and secondly that i now had a better chance of holding onto a baby when we started ivf.

so a year on from those horrendous 11 days, we are married, had a fantastic day with all of our friends and family and then went on to have a wonderful honeymoon, and we now have our own little person on the way. so those awful 11 days are a matter of history, a distant memory filled wih heart ache and pain; but heartache and pain we overcame and i believe shows the courage and strength our relationship has. i love my husband very much, he has always stuck my me throughout my ill health and continues to do so now. i know he will make a fabulous daddy and i can't wait for that day to come.
becky xx