well i have 1 week left till testing.... and ive already convinced myself its over. i have all my normal af symptoms, period pains, heavy feeling round my cervix, itchy breasts, very tired amd sort of weepy.
NEED to stop symptom spotting, but my pma is waning and i just want the wait to be over. hubby just keeps saying to stop worrying and looking for and analysing every symptom. i asked about what if it doesnt work, he just said then we'll try again, my immediate response was i dont want to. i want this one to work, then i cried... again lol.
today i was looking after my 2 year old niece and we were talking about disney land, she said its only for big girls, so i said 'i can go, i'm a big girl'.... she said 'no, you're a mummy'. i managed a smile amd a giggle but was floored inside.
putting a front on for everyone is so tiring. everytime someone asks how im feeling and how things are going i want to scream and cry and shout, but i smile and say yeh, great.
so ive managed another rant, 7 days to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEED to stop symptom spotting, but my pma is waning and i just want the wait to be over. hubby just keeps saying to stop worrying and looking for and analysing every symptom. i asked about what if it doesnt work, he just said then we'll try again, my immediate response was i dont want to. i want this one to work, then i cried... again lol.
today i was looking after my 2 year old niece and we were talking about disney land, she said its only for big girls, so i said 'i can go, i'm a big girl'.... she said 'no, you're a mummy'. i managed a smile amd a giggle but was floored inside.
putting a front on for everyone is so tiring. everytime someone asks how im feeling and how things are going i want to scream and cry and shout, but i smile and say yeh, great.
so ive managed another rant, 7 days to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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